Day Twenty Eight.- Your year, in great detail

i remember so well that 2009 started off awesome. i remember being at the void deck below ter's house and playing with bobby and sparklers and zr and kim. i remember being very happy. i remember also going to penang and having one of the best times of my life in a place so unlike singapore. it was gorgeous. i had lunch under a tree. i had a haircut there too! i remember not being too daring haha. in 2009, i eventually plucked up enough guts to slash half my hair away rendering it to it's short state now. ter was with me then. i remember that she cut her bangs while i slashed my hair away. i also remember watching twilight with a group of friends whom we (me and ter) stopped hanging out with afterwards. i remember getting back my a level results and being really really relieved that it was nowhere near too bad. i remember the fear of being indecisive and having no idea where to go after i got my results back. i can only thank God that i'm settled now and everything was and is fine. i remember that i worked admin, worked waitressing (and that job got me awesome friends that i still love to visit), worked editing (and edwin came to visit me once! only! and i loved the oyster cake thing downstairs, oh right and i went to zr's house haha!) oh and also, i remember clubbing! haha. i don't know if i'm over it completely yet though, sometimes i get random impulses and i want to be there. i remember church! church's awesome. i was so happy. i love candice and i thank God so much that he put her in my life. then there's the other people in the cg whom i will love always, people who've been there and seen me grow up. and in a whole year, i've changed. i've grown older and seen more things (big/small) pass me by. i've learnt what are some things that i should let go off and what i should hold on to. in the past year, i've grown closer and more dependent on God than i've ever been. i'm so glad for that. that looking back in the past year, i really see God's handprints in my life. that he has placed me with faithful friends and a faithful friend, people who correct and rub against and mould you into someone better. i thank God for teresa. in the past year, i've also started university and gotten into hoards of unnecessary trouble that i'm learning how to deal with. i'm still in the process of learning rest and joy in rest but everything's working out fine and i can see that now.

looking back has an amazing way of making one see what God has done. i honestly thought that my year (2009) had no manifestation of amazingness but i see now that it isn't true. God, you've been there every step of the way and you have made it good. look where i am now and where i was then. i'm only thankful that i'm here and not there and will never fall back there again.